Made it
The holidays are finally over, and J is going to finally be back to his normal schedule and home every day, again. Yay! On the downside, I have to go to work regularly again (boo!). It’s so tough going back after a lot of time off, and there’s not a whole lot going on right now, so it’s even more so!
J and I had a good talk yesterday and I feel a lot better about several things that have bothered me off and on for a while now. I need to go to the doctor, though, I’ve been putting it off for a loooong time. We talked for the first time in a long time about having children, and marriage, and I think we’re finally starting to understand each other and that we don’t disagree at all. There’s been a lot of confusion, and he doesn’t like to communicate much, so it’s been a hard road to navigate. I think I got the point across to him that I’m not a mind-reader though, and hopefully it’ll be smoother sailing.
That being said, because we are starting to realize we agree on the children-issue, I need to see a ob-gyn about several probelms I’ve had for a while. I’ve always been very irregular and it’s something I’ve just dealt with. Changing what pills I take never really affected it, and I pretty much just sighed and dealt. About a year ago I started having hot flashes and I got even more irregular than before, sometimes going up to 3 or 4 months with nothing, sometimes 3 in one month! I went to a gyn to see if she could figure out what was wrong, but she was young, and although she had me get a ultrasound done to see if there were any tumors or cysts in my uterus, she was pretty unhelpful. It was VERY expensive, too, and I got discouraged after that. Since the last J had talked it didn’t sound like he was that into having kids, I let myself ignore it until now. He’s been on me to see someone about it for a few months, and I should stop putting it off, particularly since we’ve both realized that the other does want to have a family after all, despite all our misunderstandings and whatnot.
Gotta love communication. I wish I *was* a mindreader, he’s so hard to figure out sometimes. I know he sometimes feels the same way about me, though, even though I think I’m pretty easy to figure out since I don’t generally keep how I feel about things to myself. Oh well. That’s what makes it interesting, I suppose. 